Laugh

I counted the times I wished for us
And then I counted the stars

And yet the times I wished
Still outweighed the latter

If I had a dollar for every time I wanted to hurt you
I'd be a trillionaire
But immediately there after; I'd kiss the mark I made.

If I had a nickle for every time my jealousy got the best of me,
I'd like to think I'd be broke on the road,
But I know I'd be millions of dollars richer.

And yet when we fight and bicker and argue I forget
All the silly things that pulled me into your spider web of love;
I get so tangled up in what I feel that I no longer
Breathe here.

I breathe in a place where my hate still resides,
Where my demons writhe in agony waiting to free themselves
And there I reside waiting for you to join me.

And soon enough you do, and we lay there, demons bubbling in our hearts,
And no matter how many times I swear and lie you laugh.
And there again lies another reason I wish you were laying beside me

To see the joy in your eyes
And here your gorgeous laugh that I poke fun at in all kinds of ways
And the demons relentlessly bubble
And I forget how badly I love you

And I scream and pout and curse and groan and sigh
And you laugh and it burns me up inside

And you are already far away from the place where your hate burns
And you lend a hand
And grab me out and we both laugh